Sharing Honors and Burdens

I mentioned it in my last post, but my super amazing wife and I have moved out of the United States and into an undisclosed country. Before we left, we decided to have a fun staycation in DC and one of the things we went to go see was the temporary exhibit at the Smithsonian’s Renwick Gallery, Sharing Honors and Burdens. It was a really fantastic exhibition (more reviews: one, two).

My favorite piece was the one pictured up top, titled Charmed (Bestiary) by Joe Feddersen. It is a series of shapes made from glass that are hanging down on strings. The picture really can’t do it justice and it is absolutely gorgeous, especially as the shapes move about in the breeze provided courtesy of the fan on either side. The shapes are a wide range of symbols, many of them drawn from ancient pictographs and petroglyphs, but sprinkled into them are shapes of much more modern things like bicycles or I think I spotted a submarine. It takes a while to take it all in as you scan through the shapes and more and more things jump out at you. It is a little hard to tell whether the artwork is the glass or the shadows it casts, because since the glass is clear it can be hard to see but the shadows behind come out in sharper relief. It is worth viewing from a variety of angles. My favorite part of looking at it was when we first showed up some young women were doing some fashion photos in front of it, and I think it is great when people combine their art in conversation with other artists’.

The show had a range of traditional techniques combined with the more modern ones to tell a variety of stories. The two pieces at the top are Double Raven Chilkat Dancing Blanket and Lineage Robe by Lily Hope. They are made with thigh-spun merino and cedar bark with beaver fur. The bottom piece is We Are the Ocean by Ursala Hudson, made of merino, silk, steel cones, leather, cedar bark, and silk. Our dear sweet baby angel Tinkerbell is easy to catch; all you have to do is put out a box for her and she jumps right in. Likewise my super amazing wife is easy to catch; all you have to do is put up a video of traditional spinning and weaving techniques and she is hooked (mine is steam plants). She and her friend who joined us were mesmerized by the video part of the exhibit for quite some time, and rightfully so. The artists have done some just stunning work with textiles here to create this vivid sculptural pieces and maybe I need a wardrobe update.

The final piece I have for you is Pueblo Revolt 2180 by Virgil Ortiz, and I think it was actually upstairs with more of the Renwick’s collection of pieces that they gathered because they realized they had the work of a bunch of old white dudes and really should even that out and so went on a buying spree of contemporary stuff by non-old white dudes, but nonetheless it fits the theme of Sharing Honors and Burdens. As the description says, the jar references the Pueblo Revolt of 1680 against Spanish colonizers, but, you know, futurizes it and imagines a scenario where they are finally able to once again control their own land. We appreciate ceramics in this household!

And those were the highlights (for me) of the Renwick’s exhibition. It is really fantastic to see a new set of artists on display in museums like the Renwick, and the fact they have forceful stories told with masterful technique is just icing on the cake.

Balcony Gardening

This is the saga of my super amazing wife and I trying to garden on our balcony. As you’ll recall from my Peace Corps days, I used to have a rather large garden around my house where I would spend my days growing crops and the like. I even harvested some pretty good stuff towards the end there and made a meal out of it, which is very neat. In New Haven all I really managed to grow was a small mango tree for the porch which I eventually and tragically killed by leaving it outside during some freezing rain. My super amazing wife grew up on a farm and likes to be surrounded by plants and animals so when we moved to our apartment together in Alexandria we got one with a balcony instead of a sun room specifically so we could spend time out there and also try to grow some plants. I first tried to convince her we could raise cows and/or sheep out there, and despite her deep love of sheep we didn’t do either which is sad but there you go.

Anyways the garden. We tried growing things both summers we were there (past tense because as I am writing this we have moved out of Alexandria and to an undisclosed country far far away) though summer 1 didn’t go so well. It started off pretty alright but then we disappeared for a week and everything died and we didn’t really manage to get it going again. But summer 2 went a lot better! Our setup was just six or so window garden troughs set up on a metal rack so we could keep it neat and everything outside.

The first little garden bed I planted in summer 2 along with a lemon tree, a date palm, and a flame tree (the flame tree is not a fruit tree but my super amazing wife thought they were pretty when we visited Puerto Rico so I grabbed some seeds from the ground).

My super amazing wife and I had different philosophies when it came to what we decided to grow in our individual garden beds. I pay no heed to practicality and only try to grow what interests me, which is mostly what I fondly remember growing in Zambia, such as carrots and orange sweet potatoes and beans. I also like to try to grow fruit trees, in memory of my little mango tree that again I tragically killed because I was a neglectful plant parent. None of these things however grow particularly well in tiny little containers on a balcony. My super amazing wife on the other hand is really thoughtful about what would grow well in such conditions and what she would actually use in the kitchen and also what would be pretty, so she instead favors herbs and wildflowers. She thought I was very silly when I tried to grow carrots in a balcony container.

And for a while I thought she was very silly for doubting me because the carrots seemed to grow gangbusters and were looking really good from the top but then when I finally harvested they were tiny and she was right of course (you can see the results in the first pic in this post). But what did a lot better were the soybeans I planted for edamame. Those plants grew pretty big and I got about as big a harvest as you could possibly expect from one tiny little balcony pot, and we subsequently enjoyed some home-grown edamame which was fun:

Some of our balcony garden lives on. In addition to the balcony garden, my super amazing wife had a whole bunch of houseplants that she wanted to stay alive while we were living in this undisclosed country. I had to bring my DeLorean down to my parents’ house anyways, so my mom very kindly offered to babysit all the plants for a few years. I was initially going to take the AutoTrain down to Florida and was very much looking forward to that, but turns out you can’t take a DeLorean on the AutoTrain. They don’t accept gullwing doors because the people who park the car on the train wouldn’t be able to get out of the car (so they say). So I wound up driving all the plants down to Florida myself, which was really a fine experience overall (and I finally got to test out my cupholder on a long car drive), but still, it wasn’t relaxing on a train for 16 hours overnight.

My mom has reported that so far the plants we brought her are absolutely thriving. I shouldn’t be too surprised, the difference between me and my mom is that my mom actually looks up what is good for the plants and then behaves accordingly. My little lemon tree was suffering I think because I was overwatering it. I had left for a week and my super amazing wife didn’t water it much and it suddenly grew two new branches, and now in Florida for like a month it is already twice as big despite me trying to grow it for the better part of two years. But having a balcony garden was a hoot and now in undisclosed country we have significantly more space (though still not Zambia space) and I am excited to see what we manage to grow out there!

Balcony garden at the height of its powers.

My One Decent Sea Story Pt VII

The most harrowing part of the night is when we spotted a merchant ship. I said earlier but you don’t exactly get many contacts out there in the middle of the Philippine Sea, and I had been hoping to go the night without one (it must have been just before midnight when I took the watch) but here one was coming along. My big worry is that we couldn’t maneuver out of the way of anyone since we didn’t have propulsion. It doesn’t feel great to be a sitting duck nuclear powered warship without propulsion and it feels worse to announce it to the world, but I had the off-going lookout try to rustle up the “not under command” lights which were supposedly hidden in the fan room somewhere. I’m not sure a nuclear-powered submarine has ever displayed those lights and unfortunately I didn’t get to be the first because we never found them. Anyways it was all moot in the end because although the merchant ship was coming from such an angle that we would have been the give-way vessel had giving way been necessary, he never got within 10 miles of us so none of it mattered in the end.

That left me with the second-most-harrowing part of the night, which was that I started to get a little chilly. It might have been the Philippine Sea near the equator, but I was used to warm temperatures and it was the middle of the night and there was a bit of a breeze and there I was in just my coveralls so I started to get just a wee bit cold. I thought fondly of my sweater that was hanging up in my stateroom (on good days, you know when you have a nuclear reactor that operates, the AC is on full blast and the control room gets a little chilly and you can just chill in your fetching little sweater as you command a warship around). I also thought about all my poor crewmates boiling in a very hot submarine with sweat literally dripping down the walls, and more importantly what their reaction would be if I complained about being a little chilly, and so therefore decided that discretion was the better part of valor and opted not to ask a messenger to run me up a sweater.

Meanwhile all those nerds back in the engineroom were trying to fix whatever was wrong so we could start up again. I stayed out of it. I did have to call back at one point to ask nicely if we could turn on the air compressor and the Engineering Officer of the Watch was kind enough to give us the power to do so, but I tried to avoid bothering them and also tried to avoid learning anything at all about what was going on. I was pretty successful. Eventually my relief came up and my watch ended. My relief was standing his first surfaced Officer of the Deck watch and was excited about getting such an easy one after hearing all about my honestly very relaxing seven hours or so. The sun was coming up and he was looking forward to a glorious morning of getting a tan. It was not to be. They had fixed the reactor and it was now time for the emergency reactor startup. That, I understand, went pretty flawlessly, thanks to the Engineering Officer of the Watch who was probably a bit intense for his own good but just intense enough for the good of our continued propulsion. Our poor Officer of the Deck had to suddenly figure out what was going on, ask for various permissions, and, you know, drive a submarine around. Poor guy.

Meanwhile I had a lovely breakfast of whatever the cooks could scrounge up and then hung out until it was time to do some rigging for dive so we could get back underwater once the reactor was going. Those duties eventually complete, I went to bed. The weirdest part about this whole adventure is that when I woke up for my next watch it was honestly like the whole thing had never happened. Everything was back to normal, the walls were no longer sweating, and I took over a watch as Contact Manager in my cozy little sweater with the soft sounds of passive sonar coming in over the speakers. The emergency reactor shutdown and startup and panic and diesel generator not starting and then it did start and high pressure blows and all that jazz was like a weird dream. Except someone had to write an incident report. Not me. I stayed out of it. Nuclear power kids: fantastic, the best, but much more enjoyable when left to other people.

The end!

My One Decent Sea Story Pt VI

As another side note, a buddy of mine one time met someone who worked in Hollywood or something. This person told my friend that he knew some guys and maybe if he worked something up he could pitch a submarine TV show to some people. The greatest submarine TV show is of course Last Resort, but it was fun to imagine alternatives. My buddy turned to me to help out with ideas, and the two I remember were doing an episode a la Waiting… where a new Ensign shows up and can’t get a word in edgewise all day as he is shuffled around from misadventure to misadventure, and my other idea was basically my experience here where a dude wanders around oblivious to the obvious crisis going on around him because he just woke up and had expected drills anyways. Of course this TV show never got pitched let alone made, but knowing someone who knows someone and saying that maybe something could get pitched seemed like a very Hollywood experience if not the quintessential Hollywood experience and I was happy to be a part of it.

On watch the first brilliant idea I had was that we should shut down some sonar arrays. They take up power and we were at periscope depth so they weren’t really all that necessary. So I wandered into the sonar shack with the intention of telling them to shut some stuff down, but when I opened the door I was immediately greeted by our senior sonar tech in his underwear who announced to me all wild-eyed that they had already shut everything down and they were only on the hull array. Later I thought to myself that he should have asked me first before he did that but in the moment I just said good and backed away slowly, and then quickly.

Our senior sonar tech was in his underwear because as I alluded to for our poor Gulf of Aden friends as soon as you shut down the reactor it gets hot. You can only run the air conditioning when you have the reactor because the load is too big for the diesel. And out there near the equator the water temperature is in the 80s, and as the submarine is, you know, immersed in water the coolest it can ever get is in the 80s. Then you add into the mix every source of heat on the submarine, such as any cooking that happens, all the waste heat from the computers, all the body heat from over 100 people, and oh yeah all the latent heat in the steam plant and the decay heat from a whole nuclear reactor and it gets so very very hot on the submarine. Sweat dripping down the walls hot. Our captain pretty quickly said people could go to half-mast on their coveralls, and I was unfortunate enough to get to witness the good (he was not very good) captain set the example by peering through the periscope in his white boxers and white undershirt, positively glowing in the dim red lights of our overheated control room.

My prescient prediction during the pre-watch brief that we might surface, or might not, came true very quickly when the captain burst in to tell the OOD to do a 10-second high-pressure blow. We did that and we were surfaced. Usually surfacing is a bit slower than that, but without the reactor you couldn’t do it the slow way and since we were going to be in this for a bit it was better to be bobbing on the surface instead of maintaining periscope depth. Surfacing through presented some troubles, namely that we had to send someone up to the bridge to man it up there and also have two people on the periscopes and there were barely enough warm bodies to go around. I was on periscope while the bridge got manned by the off-going OOD. Luckily my OOD had gotten the diesel started and came back to man the periscope with me. Once the bridge got manned we had to decide who was going to go up and relieve him since he was off-going. I gave my OOD (well he was supposed to be OOD but due to this whole thing he wasn’t OOD) the option of going up, but he said he would rather stay in control, so up I went to man surface OOD. And man lemme tell ya it was nice. As I was heading up there my poor helm made a point to note that he couldn’t maintain a course within 40 degrees of anything. Since we were in an emergency we were on the emergency propulsion motor which on a good day gives you like three knots but since it wasn’t a good day it wasn’t giving us anything at all really so without propulsion we couldn’t maintain course. That was fine, really, we had no place to be. So there I was on watch with nothing to do since we had nowhere to go and everyone was really busy trying to get the neutrons back in the reactor or whatever. The biggest decision I had to make is that my Chief of the Watch called up and asked if there was any way we could run the high pressure air compressor since we had used up all our air on the surfacing procedure, and so I called back to the Engineering Officer of the Watch, who was pretty busy, and asked nice, and he said we could, so there you go (he had to balance loads on the diesel).

To be continued…

My One Decent Sea Story Pt V

The point I was trying to make with that anecdote is that after discovering that I was just as competent as anybody else trying to run the reactor and “just as competent” meant that everyone was pretty much faking it, the wool was pulled off my eyes and I realized a large chunk of what we did was just dumb. One time I was in the midst of a reactor repair and it would take a lot of context to explain fully but a guy hit the wrong menu item on a laptop and I think re-downloaded some data instead of saving it, or something. This affected nothing and the obvious solution was just to hit like “save” again but we couldn’t do it because it wasn’t in the procedure and so I had to sit there and stare at this dude, and we had both been on watch for like 14 hours at this point, and were very sleep deprived, while the other nuclear people went off and had a very serious discussion over whether we could hit “save” on this stupid little laptop because that was the obvious answer but it wasn’t written in the procedure so we weren’t sure if we would be smited by the nuclear gods if we did this, and look it was all really really stupid and in nuclear power you had to pretend like it wasn’t and I was fed up with it all. I requested to be de-nuked actually. I have a whole other set of stories about how nuclear qualification testing worked, but honestly I’m not going to get into that. If you haven’t caught on the whole schtick of these current set of blog posts is to tell the most meandering sea story possible so I can catch up on over a month’s worth of posts, but going into nuclear qualification testing is a bit too much. I gotta save something for later.

So anyway. Finally. My one decent sea story. Look, it’s going to start off nuke-y which I’ve said is bad but bear with me for a bit. We did an emergency reactor shutdown at sea and I’m not entirely sure why. My impression was that we didn’t really need to but it was the current hip thing to do in the submarine force so we did it. What started this whole thing off was an intentional shutdown. Sort of. A scram drill. A scram drill wasn’t that big of a deal, or at least it isn’t supposed to be. A down-and-up, they’re called. In a simple scram drill you throw the scram switch, half the rods go down, and this shuts down the reactor though the reactor barely notices. I knew they were going to do a down-and-up drill on the watch before my watch, so when I woke up there were 1MCs (ship-wide announcements) about a scram but despite the fact you are supposed to listen to 1MCs I just entirely ignored them. I just went about my wake-up routine, such as going to the bathroom and taking a shower. I was only supposed to stand contact manager that watch, which is a really easy job out there in the middle of the Philippine Sea where you will get like one contact a watch, maybe, and it will be a distant merchant ship, and so all you do is just stand there, so there wasn’t a need for a robust pre-watch tour. So there I was in a little la-la land of my own making when I finally wandered up to the bridge and realized everything was on fire. Luckily, only metaphorically. Our down-and-up drill had just turned into “down” because when they inserted the scram something or other went wrong. I’m not sure what, as I’ve reiterated, but it meant we had to do an emergency reactor shutdown. Look, I know what you’re saying, we had a scram in so the reactor was already shut down, this is true, but we shut it down more. There are procedures and stuff. Maybe some valves? I dunno, it’s been a while. What was going on with the reactor was only relevant to me because the submarine was at periscope depth and people were panicking. If the reactor is going to be shut down for a while you have to start up the diesel so you can continue to run important stuff like reactor coolant pumps with keep the reactor cool, and ventilation fans and ballast pumps which keep us from dying. And just about the time I wandered up to the bridge they were trying to start the diesel and it wasn’t starting. Uh oh! The guy who was supposed to stand OOD was the guy who was in charge of the diesel, so he had to run off to try to fix that so we didn’t die or whatever. That left me the person in charge, and I had barely thought I would need to stay conscious this watch. I tried to evaluate what was going on, watch-wise, which was mostly AHHH EVERYTHING IS BAD AHHH, and then I went down for the pre-watch brief. We normally did the pre-watch brief in the wardroom, but that was full of people trying to figure out how to reverse course on the whole AHHH EVERYTHING IS BAD AHHH thing, and plus half the watchsection, including the OOD, was off trying to fix the problem, so that left me and a small gaggle of the leftover watchstanders in athwartships, the most out-of-the-way place we could muster, with me trying to lead a pre-watch brief. Just to finish painting the picture in my memory it must have been night or something and so all the lights were red and various slightly panicked 1MCs were being announced so it was confusion. And the pre-watch brief consisted I think pretty much literally of me saying: “Well, uh, we are at periscope depth and the reactor is shut down. We might surface, or we might not, who knows, so, um, be prepared for that. Any questions?” There were no questions. We gobbled down some I think olives and pudding (i.e. things out of cans because there was no power to cook with) and head up to watch.

To be continued…

My One Decent Sea Story Pt IV

A normal reactor startup is very boring. All that really actually happens is you pull the control rods out, but since it is the nuclear navy doing that rather boring thing comes with a whole bunch of paperwork and oversight and a big brief and not being allowed off the ship the night before lest you show up to work drunk or hungover, which is probably a fine state to operate a nuclear reactor in but is officially discouraged by the powers that be. So an emergency reactor startup, to a nuke, sounds like a lot of fun. It isn’t too much fun, but something that is a little fun in the nuclear world is about as good as you are going to get so people hanker for it. When nukes talk about emergency reactor startups they are usually described as like, doing a reactor startup without any of the safety stuff, but that is not really true. If the lay man were to watch one they would be bored out of their minds, but theoretically it happens a bit faster than a normal startup because you move some mostly paperwork portions to after the startup instead of during, and like, I don’t think you have quite as many independent checks of some switches or something, but overall what I am trying to say here is that despite it being a very safe and controlled procedure every nuke ever wants to do an emergency reactor startup because it sounds fun and cool and when this submarine got to do one, despite the fact they all spent three days on the edge of heat exhaustion right in the middle of waters surrounded by people who don’t necessarily like us all that much, we were all very jealous.

And then do you know what happened?! Another one of the submarines stationed in Guam did an emergency reactor startup! I don’t recall at all why they felt they had to do an emergency reactor shutdown at sea, but they got to do a startup and we were so very very jealous. I mean it is one thing when some submarine you don’t really know gets to do an emergency reactor startup, but it is a totally different thing when like people you know get to do one! No fair! No fair at all! But our time would come. I make the point that we were jealous because from my understanding there was no real reason we needed to do an emergency reactor shutdown, but it had become the hip cool thing to do so when we had even a modicum of an excuse we went for it. Though I’m not entirely sure what had happened. By this point in my time on the submarine I was thoroughly disgusted with nuclear power. After I got out of the Navy I was trying to get my Mate’s license, and this involved taking classes with a bunch of ex-Navy types. They would ask me why I got out of the Navy, and I would just reply that “nukes are a bunch of anal-retentive assholes,” and all these ex-Navy guys would just nod in agreement and there would be no further questions. So that was part of it. The other part was just like, look, being “Engineer Qualified” is a big thing in the Nuclear Navy. It literally means you are qualified to serve as an Engineer Officer, but in a more general sense it means, or is supposed to mean, that you have a deep understanding of the nuclear plant and are as qualified as anyone to decide how the thing should be operated and that you could, if called upon, run the Engineering Department. You can be in charge of a nuclear reactor! Kind of cool. Before I was Engineer Qualified, I respected the judgement of Engineer Qualified people and thought they had some deep knowledge of nuclear reactors that I lacked but would someday gain. To get Engineer Qualified you go to Prospective Nuclear Engineer Officer School and study up on nuclear stuff for like, I think it was three months? Something like that. I thought people learned stuff there but I am here to tell you: no. I mean they do, but it is all what I refer to as “nuclear trivia.” Like, interesting things about the plant, and it is probably useful to spend some time reading Reactor Plant Manuals after you probably haven’t in a year, but there weren’t any deep secrets about the nature of nuclear power revealed or hidden tomes that only those that have paid their nuclear dues were allowed to read. It was just, you know, kinda nuclear trivia. And you memorized a whole bunch of that stuff and they sent you to DC to talk to some engineers that frankly had better stuff to do that day and they called you “Engineer Qualified” and suddenly you could be an Engineer if you wanted? I immediately lost all respect for anyone who was Engineer Qualified as soon as I became Engineer Qualified. Like all the time the Engineer would think one thing and I would think another and before of course I would have deferred to the Engineer but now I was just as qualified as he was, and clearly since we disagreed he was the idiot, and who the hell put him in charge of all this? That Engineer wound up getting fired for incompetence, which was unfair, because while he was in fact a tad incompetent every new guy is and in the case of the Engineer it is the captain’s job to make him competent and our captain, like I mentioned before, got fired for sheer incompetence and so was in no position to improve the lot of our Engineer. Honestly I think everyone involved is much happier now that they are out of the Navy. But that is a different story.

To be continued…

My One Decent Sea Story Pt III

My only decent sea story does not begin in a bar, so it can’t be that good, though it does remind me of this one guy we had on the ship, Roberts. Roberts started his Navy career a bit later than the rest of us, and so when we all met him as impressionable like 25-year-olds he was the unimaginably old age of 28. If I recall correctly he worked as a college professor before joining the Navy. We had recently left Singapore and the ship had just popped out into the Pacific between Indonesia and Australia when Nav heard a weird noise. We were sitting in our stateroom and he asked me what it was and I said like “I don’t know” and we moved on with our lives. The noise was Roberts having a seizure and he woke up on the wardroom table (that’s where they do surgeries if they have to do a surgery at sea) with Doc and the Captain staring down at him. We had to get him off the ship lest he be dying or whatever but we were hundreds and hundreds of miles from any port that would be useful to us. We were eventually told to go back to Singapore and we zoomed on back there, diverting the submarine from whatever important thing we were doing and set off instead on a mad dash to get Roberts to a medical facility. A crew of over a hundred and a whole nuclear reactor and significant operational risk (by which I mean running into a banca boat (“banca” means “boat” so “banca boat” is redundant but that’s what we called them) which would cause us a lot of headaches and the poor guy driving the banca boat his life, probably) all dedicated to making sure Roberts didn’t die. We were successful in getting him to Singapore alive and from there he was supposed to get almost directly onto an airplane to Hawaii (i.e. the closest Naval Hospital that could give him a CT scan). Later, I forget where, we all ran into Roberts and talked about what happened. Turns out when he landed in Singapore, instead of going to the airport he called and got his flight bumped to a day or two later. He then proceeded to spend those two nights just partying his as-far-as-we-knew-at-the-time critically injured brains out. Singapore has a place the sailors all affectionally called the “Four Floors of Whores” (the ship had to post a watch there, to make sure no one got in too much trouble), and let me tell you Roberts was aware of this. He also told us that turns out once he got to Hawaii they discovered he had a brain tumor. It was benign but was pushing on his brain, giving him the seizure. Still, Roberts was viscerally aware that all good sea stories start with “so there I was in a bar…” Like I said this sea story, my one decent sea story, does not begin in a bar. It begins in the Philippine Sea. If you look at a map, the Philippine Sea is indistinguishable from the Pacific Ocean. But one time I was driving from the Bridge while we were tooling around west of Guam, and I noted we were in the Pacific, but my captain very quickly corrected me to say we were in the Philippine Sea. I am sure the fish are the same on either side of Guam and for what it’s worth that captain got fired due to sheer incompetence. Anyways. Previous to this sea story there had been a submarine that had to do an emergency reactor shutdown in I think the Gulf of Aden. Those guys did not have a good time. It is very hot in the Gulf of Aden, and once you shut the reactor down you don’t have air conditioning anymore. It got so hot that people couldn’t stay in the engineroom very long which hampered their efforts at diagnosing whatever was wrong with the reactor that caused them to shut down so they could fix it and start up again, which would give them back air conditioning. It would also of course give them back propulsion because a submarine with a broken reactor is a sitting duck, mostly just bobbing around on the surface with no real defense mechanisms. Not a great situation! Especially in the Gulf of Aden! A frigate came to try to help out but they mostly also just bobbed nearby (not a lot of nuke technicians on a frigate, which are also mostly without defense mechanisms, poor things). But every nuke that I knew was pretty riveted to this story, because an emergency reactor shutdown at sea means you get to do an emergency reactor startup when you finally fix whatever was broken.

To be continued…

My One Decent Sea Story Pt II

Reading this week:

  • The Last Harmattan of Alusine Dunbar by Syl Cheney-Coker

So anyways my one good sea story. Though then again it probably isn’t that good. I know this because when I was but a young Midshipman we were on the submarine week of PROTRAMID. PROTRAMID stands for “Professional Training Midshipmen” (I like how the Navy abbreviates things by just eliminating chunks of words; it gives you a chance to actually figure out what the acronyms are supposed to stand for. So like the Commander of Submarines in the Pacific is COMSUBPAC, very straightforward, good system) and maybe I have mentioned it on this blog before but what you do on PROTRAMID is spend a week seeing what each of the major service assignments are like, namely aviation, Marines, surface ships, and most importantly submarines. Sub week was actually almost terminally boring. We were on the east coast, and so for the submarine portion we were at King’s Bay Naval Base. King’s Bay Naval Base was built where it was because land was cheap and land was cheap because it wasn’t close to anything except swamp (also handy to keep nuclear weapons away from people). So when we had downtime there was very nearly nothing at all to do, because you couldn’t go anywhere, I was too young to (legally) drink, and when you were tired to playing pool in the rec lounge you could I dunno read a book or some other lame-ass thing. This was a major hindrance because we had a lot of downtime during sub week. The submarine force has to try real hard to sell itself, so it tries to be the opposite of like Marine Week, where they have you do a bunch of stuff around the clock and give you very little free time and yell at you a lot. So submarine week they act real nice to you and give you lots of downtime, though that is also a function of there is just not a lot they can do for you for sub week. Submarines do like two things, which is tool around underwater and then occasionally shoot a torpedo. That’s about it, and once they put you in a simulator for each that’s two hours out of the week and then what else are you supposed to do? I wound up with the absolute worst hangover of my life during that week, but that’s a different story.

The point I was trying to make here is that the one thing they DO do on sub week is take you out to ride a submarine for 24 hours. That is a lot of fun actually. They bussed us down from King’s Bay to Cape Canaveral to board the boat there. This was my second time on a submarine, having ridden around a submarine the previous year, so I was like an expert. The biggest thing that annoyed me about the bus ride was hearing all my fellow midshipmen that didn’t want to ride the submarine. They weren’t claustrophobic or had any other good excuse, they just never imagined themselves becoming submariners and would have rather taken the one duty van we had access to back out into town so they could get drunk another night. As I just referenced I am as down as the next guy to get drunk (or I was then) but come on man, if you’re going to become a Marine or whatever there is no other time in your life that you are going to ride a submarine so you might as well take this chance and smoke 500 feet underwater, which I think is kind of neat even though it is bad for your health. There was a brief time when it seemed our sub ride might get cancelled and these guys were cheering, but we got to ride on the submarine so they had to suffer through 24 hours of air conditioning, pizza, and doing what few other people ever get to do! But not before we sat and waited in like a disused café or something, whatever that building was. This event was one of the more memorable of my life because it was there I met a Boatswain (pronounced “bosun;” my senior year at the Academy I was talking to this woman who was service assigned surface ships, which she had not expected. She was earnestly trying to catch up on all the boat lore that she had somehow missed in her four years at the Academy, and I was trying to help out by explaining words like “gunwale” where pronounced “gunnel” and the “forecastle” was pronounced “fo’c’sle” and the boatswain example above, after all of which she replied “are you sure your parents aren’t just from the south?”). You see at this point I was familiar with Boatswain’s Mates, but I hadn’t ever realized you could just have a Boatswain. It makes sense in retrospect (Boatswains, this one told me, are the Warrant Officer versions of Boatswain’s Mates, which I have never bothered to verify). When he told me he was a Boatswain I was like “oh man, I know all your friends!” (mates, get it?) Anyways, it was this man that told me “all good sea stories start with ‘so there I was in a bar…’”

To be continued…

My One Decent Sea Story Pt I

Reading this week:

  • The African American Odyssey of John Kizell by Kevin G. Lowther
  • A Dirty War in West Africa by Lansana Gberie

Thinking back on my time in the Navy, I don’t have a lot of good sea stories. I think this is a nuke thing. I was of course nuclear-trained so I could serve as a submarine officer. I spent a lot of time back in the engineroom doing nuclear things, and the nuclear sea stories don’t really translate well for the general public. I remember telling a real hum-dinger of a story that had the whole crowd laughing (I promise) where the punchline was “and that’s why we have a non-vital bus!”

I think I can verify this nuclear lack of good sea stories thing via my parents. My dad was a nuke, and he barely has any sea stories. He’s told a couple that I later realized where just rehashes of things in Catch-22, which, come on man. His one other good one involved him frightening a young(er) Junior Officer on the bridge of his ship when my dad made the JO think that the captain had relieved him (my dad) for cause, leaving this poor JO alone on the bridge with an apparently angry and mercurial captain. I resonate with this story, because I spent a lot of time when I was OOD making people angry on purpose. My mom on the other hand, whoo boy. She was not a nuke, but was on conventional surface ships (she is so very much not a nuke… one time I asked her about steam generators, which her ship had, and she answered the question but said if I wanted to be sure of the details I should ask dad. Then, in the one time I have ever seen anger behind her eyes, she added “damn nukes never forget”). She’s got endless sea stories. A whole bunch of Hong Kong no-shitters, as the old-timers say. She was also in the Navy back in the day when you could, for example, have a crewmember nicknamed “Purple” as in “Purple Haze” because he was notorious for smoking weed. One of her stories is that while they were in port along with a whole bunch of sharks, Purple went overboard because he was this time very drunk instead of very high. So the ship’s doctor dove in after him and rescued him, which earned the ship’s doctor a severe tongue-lashing from the captain. The captain was much more interested in making sure that the ship’s doctor was safe from sharks than making sure that Purple was safe from sharks. Another time a mysterious light was lit on the ship’s mast. No one knew what it was. They looked it up and discovered it had to do with landing helicopters, which was weird because helicopters didn’t land on her ship. They then did more digging to figure out where the switch for the light was, and traced it to a compartment that had been sealed off (the compartment was for flight control but once they didn’t control any flights any more it was apparently just sealed off). Some of the crew figured out a way to get into that compartment and then proceeded to use it to smoke weed. There was apparently a lot of weed smoking back in the day in the Navy. Or there was another time that one of the other junior officers had made so many small corrections to the ship’s course that he was in fact sailing the ship in the exact wrong direction of which he was supposed to be going, which my mom discovered when she noticed that Australia was off the starboard side of the ship instead of the port side. Or another time when mom was standing OOD and one of her chiefs came through in full overboard gear and when she asked why he just asked if she was driving that night and when she replied in the affirmative he just nodded his head and walked off. And so on! And please remember these are just the stories she is willing to tell me.

To be continued…

From the Deep

I don’t really have anything to write about this week! I feel terrible about it! Last week I posted something but it was like a couple of hours late! Am I in a rut?! I don’t know! Life as been busy and full of a range of stressors and not-so-stressors and I mean generally good but I haven’t had a lot of opportunity to do things that feel narratively satisfying to discuss! Lots of little things, no big thing! You know?! But the other weekend my super amazing wife and I went to the most underrated Smithsonian because it is the best Smithsonian, the National Museum of African Art! We went just to pop in and when we were there we discovered that From the Deep was open! This exhibit is sublime! Fantastic! Magnificent! A tour de force!

I have just complained about having nothing to write about but then I said we went to From the Deep and I would have just opened with writing about it but it is hard to describe and I am a writer of very limited means! Extremely hard to capture in photos, despite the fact that the bulk of the exhibit is actually photos. From the museum’s page:

Drexciya’s founding myth has inspired numerous artists, among them Ayana V. Jackson who, in this exhibition, brings to life an immersive, feminist, and sacred aquatopia where African water spirits from Senegal to South Africa both midwife and protect the Drexciyans. Jackson asks that we reckon with the brutal history that cast these beings to the sea while simultaneously envisioning a world of powerful, resilient women.

I just absolutely loved how she has put these costumes together, using the meaningful detritus that would be associated with enslavers’ use of the sea to traffic in their fellow humans. I mean the above dress is made out of fishing nets with a belt of rope! Fantastic! And the below dress, I think the use of the fans as the top is inspired, and also frankly I just go gaga over anything made with banknotes!

You should go see this exhibit!!!! That is the only message I have for you this week!!!! Ayana V. Jackson has assembled an extremely powerful and enveloping series of imagines, motifs, and metaphors that force you to confront an evil history by thinking not about the men that perpetrated it but instead about the women that faced it and the embodiment of their resilience, strength, and future that never was but instead could still be!!!!!